A long time seen by none.

It truly has been a while since I have visited this place.
Such a shame.
It has been quite some time since I've had the luxury to sit before my computer and think about my life and the state it is in. It has been an even longer and turbulant time since I have been in the mind to do so.
I suppose I should relate the most memorable events of this most active of times.
I moved out and broke up from my long time girl-friend and mother of my youngest daughter.
I took solace in the room and board offered by one of my best and oldest friends. His wife and child welcomed the company.
Fast forward to this day, this month, looking back if seems as if it were six months since my departure from her place, and I have spent the better portion of that time back at her place, for one reason or another. I am told this time I have the freedom of choice. I can choose weather I wish to stay, but it just makes sense to sleep and preaty much live there, yet I don't pay rent there, but at the place I don't live.
To add insult to injury, I baught satin sheets for a twin bed that I don't sleep in -wait, it gets better. And when I was able to sleep enveloped in these newly aquired items, I find it most difficult just to keep the pillow under me with it's satin pillow case agianst the satin bead spread.
My girlfriend and my roomate's wife get pregnant, and my girlfriend miscarries. I don't completely believe here and request paperwork to prove her claims -I know I am a complete ass.
Now I sit wondering were my life will thrust me, where do I belong. What descisions are mine and not some masterminds wild dreaming. Who am I, were do I belong?